Over the last few weeks I have been going back to church, I cant remember If I have said in an earlier post that I was a Latter Day Saint www.lds.org or a Mormon as we are also known. Anyways through the wonderful testimony from a friend of mine Diva in th US of A and the way she lives her life she has helped me to become stronger in my faith and return to The restored Church on this earth. I know that I have big steps to take, and that I have many sins to repent for, but I am finally back on that narrow path and although the progress may be slow at this stage It is at least forward again after so many years.
The Australian Communications and Media Authority (ACMA) has registered the world’s first legislative code of practice for internet service providers (ISPs), Dealing with unsolicited email commonly known as spam costs business and home net users millions of dollars a year and it seem’s that as one email craze fades out another starts
(Hmm I wonder if I could control my micro remote control car with my viagra enhanced penis)
Under the code, ISPs will have to offer spam filtering options to customers they will also have to impose reasonable limits on the rate at which subscribers can send email, Spammers can face penalties of up to $1 million under another act, the Spam Act, which came into force two years ago.
Apple is facing lawsuits over the ipod range including the Nano as it causes hearing loss or could cause hearing loss as they produce between 104db and 115db sound levels, see here for a comparison. They have released a patch that lets users set the maximum volume and it even allows parents to lock the volume with a PIN. This should stop the non hacker types, I give it less then a week before a “patch” is around to bypass the PIN protection.
I had a really restless sleep last night, I was having lots of minor seizures on and off all night and I felt like I had been hit by a truck, well my own fault for not taking my meds at the right times.
I went in to Harvey Norman in Warragul today and was just looking around, I had thought of buying a new game for the Playstation 2 but ended up putting a deposit down on a new mobile/cell phone. The phone I m getting is called the XPhone and it is from the company O2. Not only is it a mobile phone but it is also a Smartphone running Windows Smartphone Edition 2003.
So with this new phone that I get in about 4 weeks I should be able to do podcasts and Vidcasts 🙂 while I am out and about as well as blog to it
I guess I am really the last person to be giving relationship advice to anyone, that said this isnt advice at all, when I was a teenager I was involved in helping out with kids with special needs, next to the highschool that i went to was a school targeted at these wonderful kids, while there I made friends with one of the parents of a student, her name was Hazel.
Hazel was a lovely lady from California who had immigrated to Australia, she was always there to help people out if she could and one instance that sticks in my mind is the day we saw the car in front of us slide of the road in the rain. When we spoke to the driver of the car we found out that he had just lost his job, had a new baby and that his car had really bald tyres. So Hazel in her usual compassionate way took him down to the nearest tyre fitter and paid for a set of retreads for his car, and yes there are people like that in this world.
Well back to the story at hand, we fell in love. Now that may not sound like anything until you take in to consideration the following, I was 16 and she was 42 hence why I am never one to judge relationships based on the age diffrence. She was also married and choose to leave her husband to be with me. Now I am not proud that I broke up a marriage for our relationship to contimue but what I do know now in my life was I really was in love with Hazel and I honestly belive we would still be together if she was still alive.
Now this is the heart of the post.
Hazel fell pregenant with my child, She was a diabetic that unknown to her at the time had early stage renal failure, the pregnancy caused her kidneys to fail completely I blamed myself and this in turn required her to abort the pregnancy to save her own life. It was devasting to both of us and it made our relationship that much stronger.
The renal failure resulted in Hazel having Peritoneal Dialysis wikipedia four times a day, this went on for about 2 1/2 years. One day Hazel was out and about and I got a phone call from the hospital informing me that a kidney was ready for transplant and we had 50 minutes to get to the hospital. Now this was before mobile phones, so I started ringing the shopping centres and had them page her while I was getting her daughter organised to take hazel to the hospital. Well we did manage to find her and get to the hospital, the transplant itself went really well and her urine output was really good even before she had woken up from the surgery, but (theres always a but isnt there in these stories) during the operation a blood clot had gone to her brain and she suffered a major stroke resulting in complete paralysis of both sides of her body I blamed myself .
It took 18 months of intense physio but Hazel was progressing to the point that she had been able to come home for a weekend or two and was able to take a few steps unassisted, things seemed to be shaping up. Then one morning at 10:17 I got a phone call from Hazel and just before she hungup she said to me “Dont worry, everything will be ok!”, Now you might be asking why I highlighted everything. It is because she knew what was coming next and that is why she didnt say “Dont worry I will be okay” because at 10:39 the doctor rang me to tell me that Hazel had died I blamed myself from a blood clot that had blocked off the blood flow to her lungs. (That day is imprinted in to my mind)
It is only just recently that I have realized that she was right, I shouldnt worry as everthing will be ok and I also now know that I should not blame myself, Hazel fell in love with me, she knew she was pregnant and knew the risks she was facing trying to carry the baby, she made that choice because she loved me and for that reason and that reason only I needed to move on with my life, and it is because she did love me that I need to say to her that I am sorry that it has taken me more then 15 years to do it. Maybe that is why I have had problems in relationships as well as the borderline, I hadnt let Hazel go, I was clinging on instead of respecting her memories, but then when Ive been in relationships that make me feel bad for mentioning someone I loved who had died, they were jealous of her, maybe I gave them a reason to be jealous. Well not any longer. I have moved on. I Dont blame myself as blaming myself is blaming you for loving me and me for loving you.
Hazel I loved you..
Hazel I was in love with you..
Hazel I will always love you..
Hazel You will always be in my Heart..
God bless you..
Yesterday I took Bloss to buy her new car, her old Ford meteor had really reached its use by date as it was getting on in years and it also had had a pretty hard life from the kids, long miles and dirt roads. So last week we went in search of a new car, the requisites where pretty minimal. It had to be a 4 cylinder as fuel is only getting more pricey, it had to be younger then her old car and it needed to be ready to drive away as we didnt have time or faclities to carry out repairs.
We went in to Chris Lieshout Motors to have a look, Chris himself was there to help us out and as I had once been in the used car industry in Queensland I didnt beat around the bush, I said to him that we had a Metor as a trade and that we had AU$2000 cash, we wanted a small sedan/hatchback late 1980’s to early 1990’s that we could drive away. Well low and behold he took us out the back for a servicing (or is that the cars) and he had a Holden “beep beep” Barina there. Bloss liked it as it was a pretty blue, I liked it as it was in good mechanical condition for its age.
So no mucking around, straight swap with the cash and Bloss is now the proud owner of a New (used) car that we spent the day driving around in.
I have always loved riding motor bikes, but with the balance problems that I have just walking I think that my days of crusing around on two wheels are over (if I am honest with myself) but maybe I can get around on three wheels instead. Over at Gizmag they have an article on a new car/motorcycle that looks cool. Because of its size it is classed as a motorcycle and I would like to go for a few laps in one if I had a spare $80,000. Ahh well maybe one day I will win the lottery.
McAfee released a virus definition file recently (Defintion file 4715) that went on a rampage of users systems and started deleting files that it flagged as a windows virus that first was discovered in 2004. The only problem was that the files that it flagged in fact were not infected with a virus. Programs affected included Excel, Flash and even some Google files, maybe McAfee was upset with Google’s decision to include Norton’s AV in its essential software pack.
McAfee rushed out a new definition file (4716) but for many of the users that reguarly update the damage was allready done to their machines. Mkaes you wonder at point does a software program become viral itself..